CRAZINESS

I AM SLOWLY GOING CRAZY 1 2 3 4 5 6 SWITCH
CRAZY GOING SLOWLY AM I 6 5 4 3 2 1 SWITCH

How do you stop a bunch of kids who refuses to stop talking even though they know what they are doing is completely wrong???? Sigh...God have mercy on me.

Other than that...I like where I'm at. =)

In Awe

Yes, Jesus has amazed me once again. I am very blessed indeed. Have you ever noticed how much you learn when you lead a bible study...Perhaps more than the ones being lead? It's a funny feeling. This evening I was preparing the girls' bible study (because I have much free time) and through John 4:1-26, God has shown me how much He loves us. It wasn't just about how to live/worship/pray/etc, but it was about how Jesus sees us. I find myself focusing Jesus is the only way to eternal life but there is so much more than just that...how Jesus begins the conversation, how He continues it, who He is talking to and how He keeps drawing her near Him. I encourage you all to read it...except the bible study girls or else I won't have anything to talk about! =) But yes...my understanding of Him is so limited...I am humbled.

"Oh God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

I have seen you in the sanctuary
and behind your power and your
glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lip will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
My soul will be satisfied as with the riches of foods;
with singing on my mouth will praise you.

On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of
the night.
Because you are my hellp,
I sing in the shawdow of your wings.
My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me." Psalm 63:1-8

I am still praying for His guidance career-wise. =)

Still Waiting

Yes....I am still waiting for a position from the board. Sigh...I feel somewhat useless. Feel like I need to release some stored up energy and just GO! But perhaps this is what God wants me to learn...wait...patience. Hmmm...I wonder what I'm supposed to do in the meantime. All I do now is sleep, eat, spend time with my daddy and my mommy, pray, prepare for bible study (like 3 days early!!!), talk on the phone, watch tv and...sleep. Kinda feel like my life is slowly passing by me. I know I should be grateful for this time of relaxation and I am...it's just...I want to do something. Maybe get out of the house...but everyone has normal lives...normal schedules...they work or go to school...no one can come out and play.

I AM SLOWLY GOING CRAZY, ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR, FIVE, SIX SWITCH
CRAZY GOING SLOWLY AM I, SIX, FIVE, FOUR, THREE, TWO, ONE SWITCH!

I even finished Mario Land...the really really really really old one that you play on the thick and grey gameboy. Yes...after 16 years I was finally able to kill the big boss. Ha ha ha ha.

Thanks to those who have been praying for me...yes...it is only Him who is keeping me sane. =)

MMMM...tubby dogs...anyone want to go someday???

Still Here

Wow it's been so long. Ha ha ha...funny that's how I usually start my blog. Honestly, I've been on internet a lot more than usual but have been lazy...didn't really want to think. =)

A lot has happen in the last...when's the last time I wrote????...couple of months. Teaching went by amazingly fast and a new school year is approaching. Hmmm I wonder where God is going to bring me this year. And finally the possession of our house.

Anyways, God has shown me much of His blessings this summer. He has taught me to rely on Him, that it is okay not to be strong, to be still before Him, live by what He teaches and love more than ever before. It's all very hard, every fibre within me screams and fights against what He says but in the end what He says is always always true. Funny isn't it...knowing that He is almighty God...all knowing God and we resist, well I do even though I know He loves me and gives me the best. Speaking of the best...God has definitely blessed me (and Tony) with very wonderful friends. I praise Him and rejoice for He has made me glad.

I'm learning to truly love those who are not saved by spending time with them. Through these times He has showed me that He loves and desires to be with those who do not know Him. I went for coffee with an ex-coworker the other day and it was nice...God was there. Even though I didn't talk much it was nice to listen to my friend talk and just allowed her to be loved. Does that make sense? It was neat...maybe I should drop all ministry and just focus my time with those who do not know Him...but the toddlers are sooo cute! Anyways...let us continue to walk in the light just as He is in the light.

Wow, it's been a while hasn't it. Time flies by sooooo incredably fast. Yes...this blog is for King cuz his voice is always at the back of my mind saying that I haven't blogged for a while.

Things have been busy as usual but it's going to get busier. My school decided to bump me up to fulltime!!! Yeah, but that also means more planning, more marking and more prepping. I guess that's okay, it prepares me for later on. Yes all you going to be beginner teachers, you're not going to have a life until 2 years into the job. I am very thankful though, I just pray for Him to be with me every step of the way cuz it's going to be sssscccccccaaaaaaaarrrrrryyyyy.

So I went up to Edmonton with some friends this weekend. It was very iiiiinnnnnttteeerrreeesstttting. Though I didn't attend Breakforth I still learned very much. God has blessed me with some very awesome friends, friends I feel I do not deserve...but yes...like Tony says...I don't deserve all this...it is by His grace He has blessed me with so much. I am truly truly thankful. I just pray that I can be a blessing to them as well.

Another thing I learned is to pray and pray that my heart will never be hardened towards God, that it will always be humble and moldable before Him. It's scary because something happened during Breakforth and many hearts hardened because of what was said that was not pleasing to the ears. I know I get offended easily and tend to focus on parts which are against me not parts that encourage me to be my best/do my best. Yes...we need to be ever listening...soft like clay so that we may be transformed according to His good and awesome will.

Nightie night ya'll.

AN ADVICE

Something to keep in mind...whenever you call your significant other, even if it's on his/her cellphone, always ask for him/her!!! I called Tony the other day before we met up (because that was the plan since I woke up later.) I was in the car ready to go to Superstore to meet him. Before that I called Tony's cellphone, when he picked up I said very excitedly "HI HONEY!!!!" However, the reply was not what I expected. The receiver said "Hi...it's Mark." So embarassing and yes...the next time I see him I'm going to feel awkward. Sigh, and stupid thing was Tony knew I would do that. =P Arrrrg.

Crazy!!! It's already been two weeks. I've been really busy lately...marking...planning...putting marks into the system. But I'm glad most of the stuff is over and done with except the planning part, I don't think I'll ever be done that. So yeah, stress level has been quite high thus, patience level is quite low...it still is. And, when I mosey around the house doing nothing I feel grumpier because I feel so guilty not doing anything. I've also been having a difficult time waking up...sigh, I got to school late almost everyday this week. Well usually I leave at about the same time but these couple of times I left 5 minutes later than usual and traffic was horrible. It was embarassing when I arrived to the class late. Yeah, I haven't spent much time with God either.

I have been reading this book called "Velvet Elvis." It's really good, totally recommend it...it gives a new perspective, one that I haven't really taken a look at before. It talks about Christianity relating to jumping on a trampaline with someone you love. And, QUESTIONING IS GOOD, it helps us grow so be honest with God, ask Him what's in your heart, Abraham did, Jesus did, David did, Moses did. God is strong enough to handle our honesty. It talks about Christianity not being just a way of life but a reality and how sometimes we have to be careful in building a brick wall with facts from the bible (ie. if this didn't happen then none of this would happen.) And sometimes we use those bricks to witness to people by "defending our faith" when Jesus didn't defend His faith (saying this religion and that belief is wrong), He invited us to join...just like jumping on a trampaline, when you love something you share it. Hmmm...have I been joining Him lately??? Let us live joyfully each moment of everyday with the Lord.

PS I was going to post the scary look on my profile from Geo's pics but yeah...I got freaked out when I saw it so I took it off. Hee hee hee.

PSS Did you know that I have over 77 pages of receipes saved on my computer with font size 8.5??? Me neither!